hmm
wad do i have for meals today

that's coffee and laksa maggi in the morning
yum yum

2pieces of honey dew and a big big apple.

apple v digestive
stomach growl early(excuses..muhaha)
so dinner bought spicy kang kong rice
and a mars choc

ate all
but so expensive!!!!
$6.50 for a meal from downstairs lehz!

ok...exceeded my calories limit for the day again X=

i got a dream this morning before i wakes up
it's jh again
the 2nd time he entered my peacefuls slp

this time the story ish a bit unique
not the typical missing of a person
and me hoping to retinguish the past

in my dream, i was given a day,
the day jh went back to the time he was attached with me
i still have many qns in my head
which was left unsolved after we broke

so the day was given to me unknowingly,
to bringback the time and be open to one another.

it's been a long long time since we had our last chat
it's a causual content
yet the feeling was so close to heart, so much like kinship
i really enjoyed it.

however
i tried to turn things ard
my wishful thinking
hear me

jc knows jh was behaving weird for jus today
i dunno how i got in touch with jc, and had asked for his opinion if i would get back to jh again
however seemz
he wasnt encouraging of it
i thot i wld make him mine again
but
aft his words
it stikes me

i remmeber having a sch celebration dinning with jh
before the dream ends
i had chose to be awake

somehow, my inner feelings told me once again
not to dwell on the past
and to move on

i know being together may not be possible this lifetime
but deep down,
i think i still yearn for his presence

many men has crossed my path
but no one stays in my heart dat long as jh has

frankly speaking
i dunno wad's love
i nv believe in this nonsence any more.
and i accept i cant be in love again

i need to accept
to feel better
to know truely im born this way
and thereafter embace and love myself more.

i need to grow more
growing up helps me to see matters in a broader perspective
and more importantly,
learning to take things lightly,
& let go.


weird
i hope for his appearence for my coming birthday this time
&it seemz the only valid reason to want to see him again.

im confused

do i really not know whether i still hope for him
or
do i choose not to face the fact that i still want him

am i deceiving myself on sth? i have yet to derive an ans.

enuff..i need to snap back to reality and reuturn back to work

my concern shld be my exam now
exam
exam
exam

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